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"Life is supposed to be difficult," he said taking a long swig for his ornate hip flask, "It’s the struggle against the infinite violence of a universe.” I smiled, perhaps he was right or perhaps he was just an asshole making it up as he went along, but the gravity of his remark struck me unexpectedly. The default to life was indeed struggle, for all life not just intelligent life; why would I be exempt. I didn’t care for the man and his insidious gloat of pomposity. Nothing is absolute, nothing certain, which makes the possibilities boundless. The joy of life is making it from one moment to the next through adversity and earning the things the things people say about you when you arrive at your freshly dug grave carried by those you hold dearest.

Sunday, 18 August 2013

The 25th Hour

He waits. Reflects; How did it come to this? Not enough vitamins, too many hugs who knows. Where did it even start? The drugs, the alcohol, the money. Regardless they’re coming and it isn’t just for a finger this time.

The cold steel of the Remington pump action rests on his lap like a faithful dog. His head is slung back and his eyes are closed, listening, concentrating.  The door, someone’s at the door. No just the wind. None the less he readies his arms, shuts his eyes once more; relax the time will come.

Just get on a train, any train that’s what he should have done. What then? Start a new life? Find a job, something cash-in-hand, sample the delights of small town England. Meet a nice girl, buy her flowers, take her somewhere interesting, marry her, have children and maybe way down the line when the boys are old enough, gather the family together and tell them the truth? It will be hard at first, but there will be a long healthy life to figure that out.  
      
They would find him; he knows this, burn his dream down because that is what happens to bad men who get sloppy. Besides who in their right mind would leave London? This dark hearted bitch of a city. Who would dare betray her?

Fuck small town England, fuck the pretty girl with the respectable family, and fuck a long healthy life, how could they compare to her bright lights and golden streets. London understands the need for self-destruction, besides a hail of lead is so much easier.
    
The demons won’t have him, not this day, not without a fight. Footfalls outside, shadows of half a dozen men definitely armed; only five shells. He jerks to his feet, shotgun to his shoulder, heart thundering he sweeps through the house; calm your nervous this will all be over soon one way or the next.


The front door in his sites, shuffles on the other side; make each cartridge count. The lock slips, the handle turns, the portal is breached. He squeezes the trigger.      

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