What Love will do

As the sun falls on broken ground with my great love, hand in hand, touched by this inordinate beauty, I whisper all the things I would do for her. I promise her my very soul and every part of my being.

She turns to me and pledges all the same and more. And as the colours turn to dark in a deep moment of contemplation she unearths a terrible and beautiful truth “Love will make slaves of us all.”

Nightly Creatures

Shouting is the only way we hear each other over the distance that has come between us. The argument ends in the same way; her arms crossed, tears in eyes and me slamming the door on my way to Saintly Stan’s Bar n’ Grill.

Glass to my lips like a kiss once known, I drink. Half a bottle in he cuts me off, the bastard; I pay the tab and amble away. The streets are a wet night of passion; huddled figures dance, as the rain soaks their bones, from one end to the next.

I make for the comforting shelter of an all-night liquor store. The clerk barely acknowledges my existence but hands over a bottle of cheap vodka.

I stumble out, booze in hand, into some bad tempered youths, one takes exception and pulls a crooked blade on me, grinning I tell him where to stick it. His friends hold him back; I ready the bottle like a club, nothing would be more pleasing than beating this anal stain out of my misery. 

Why did she ever have to meet such a creature as I?

Disappointingly, they clear off. I find a lonely bus bench and begin the serious business of drinking. Halfway through a skirt too short for this weather starts asking me questions I have no answers too. She hands me a bag of white powder and I wave her off, but not before she takes my whole wallet as payment.

I do the coke. It all but fucks me up in a whizzing tantrum that batters the inside of my head. Finally it overwhelms me, I throw up, mostly on the pavement. It all goes black.

When I come to it’s on the cold vinyl of my kitchen floor.  My vision clears, she’s lying motionless in a pool of her own blood, brains and skull. The hangover numbs the shock and dulls my reaction.

Still if I ever loved her I would be holding her and screaming in agony, instead I dial 999 and fall heavily into my favourite chair and wait. Why did she ever have to meet such a creature as I?

Tales of the Night Bus

He finds his feet in the darkness, banging the clock radio to shut its relentless greetings. Shower, clothes, teeth, hair, breakfast toast and egg, 0420. The streets are clear except for dimming traffic lights and occasional trees, pigeons rule the road.

The bus stop flickers yellow and the game begins, N55 against the clock, the clock wins by 15. Doors swing open to the dead eyed driver, fare paid, up the perilous stairs to the top deck. 6 riders await, a pair of too beautiful twins catch the eye, he smiles, one does, the other rolls her eyes.

“Come with me to where the night bus ends”

Sits near the back, rests the cold glass against his face and watches the London pass by. Finally flicks through the easy pages of a soft novella, dark tails of death and despair conquered by an unlikely hero with a smoking pistol and a hot piece of ass.

At Shoreditch a pimp and his pale woman stumble between the benches. The strung out lines of a bad junkie lingers on their faces. She’s been places tonight, far out places and he scraped her off the floor more than once tonight and they’ll do it again like the money never happened.

Suddenly there she is, some soft, broken girl turned woman, dressed in black with hair to match that drapes her face and shoulders, sharing his bench. Her Madeline eyes lock his and her red lips open “Come with me to where the night bus ends”.

He sees himself with her hands in his and meets her face with one soft kiss, days of toil in warm climates and sweet wet nights under tropical stars promise. Browned skin in everlasting summer, the years would go, but there would always be happiness to be found in the same place.

The dream shuts violently as the bus jerks him from the sleep he had so easily slipped, and it is lost, she is lost, the night bus has taken her. The stop comes and he wrestles with the idea of not getting off, never getting off until he finds her again and makes things right again. But the night is done.             

   

Great British Bake Off: 10 things that will definitely happen, maybe.

The Great British bake off is once again here to give the oppressed masses something to talk about that isn't how terrible the summer has been thus far. 12 unremarkable souls will battle each other with flour, eggs and deadly whisk  for supremacy of the oven.

And the British public will not be denied  this glorious, gladiatorial spectacle; songs of victories and valiant defeats will be sung at watering holes the country over for generations or at least until the show’s nauseating 12 week run is over.

So if you've never seen an episode or like me don't intend to ever again, here are 10 things that will definitely probably happen during the course of the season:

1)  More pastry related puns than you could shake cinnamon stick at.

2)  The contestants will complain about a surprise heat wave in the middle of summer which is not that much of a surprise it being, you know, summer.

3)  A tiny incident, blown completely out of proportion by the twitterati demanding satisfaction, will over shadow all and any important current events. Last year the “freezer debacle” came close to bringing down civilisation as we know it, this year my money is on “mild racism.” 

4)  Some dribbling off-wit will undoubtedly start a petition to bring back a favourite after they've been kicked off the show for their part in the above mentioned incident (mild racism).  

5)  A contestant will be brought to tears.

6)  Mel will reference her love of eating cake at which point Sue will punch her in the face repeatedly until she passes out, pause for a standing ovation arms raised in , then stamp on her head for good measure.

7)  Mary Berry will have to be reminded it’s Tuesday, she’s on the telly and the marques is not the nursing home her relatives have abandoned her to. Is that ageist? (Tina has mild to severe ageism in the Da Costa household  betting pools.)

8)  The words, “That’s a good bake,” will be uttered.

9)  Paul Hollywood will finally tell Mary Berry of his feelings for her and in a teary eyed “Lady in Red” moment fall to one knee and beg for her hand in marriage.

10) The BBC will introduce 'Game of Thrones' style trials by combat to resolve draws and test the contestants metal.       

In defence of Rachel Dolezal

Rachel Dolezal lied. A white woman pretending to be black. This is the thing that will follow her for the rest of her life.

The top job in the fastest growing sport for women, in England, is held by a man. Mark Sampson is Head coach of England’s Women’s football team and this is somehow completely acceptable.

What message does this send to young girls and former players who want to get into coaching? That no matter their effort they will always come second to a man?

It's unfortunate, perceptions of women have stagnated and even digressed in recent times and racism and classism have stepped up their game to create a cocktail of pure hate.

Rachel Dolezal lied to get a job she cared about and was probably very much qualified to do, apart from being white of course, and had she been a man the matter would have ended with her swift dismissal and unremarkable replacement. Instead the media and Internet have taken her to be some sort of vile, child eating villain.

And how the people love a female villain to set alight at the stake on a pile of inflammatory and hate filled blogs and tweets. ‘Burn the witch’ they cry all the time forgetting their own daughters are watching; fearful of their own dreams to be more than they are.      

No one has taken the time to ask for a measured response to why she did this or highlighted her achievements on behalf of the NAACP.

Caroline Criado-Perez received all manner of threats during her campaign to have a female face on the new banknotes (Jane Austin will appear on £10 note in 2017) and Sue Perkins suffered the same because of a fabricated story about her hosting, that standard of maleness, Top Gear.  

With such unwarranted attacks on women of merit it is no wonder that more teenage girls are turning to the porn industry, unconcerned that this will haunt them indefinitely, out of a lack of self-worth.

We are in danger of raising a generation of girls who are too afraid to fulfil their potential because they are learning just how harsh our society comes down on women who dare to ascend, despite their hard labour and achievements. 

 Rachel Dolezal lied and has lost the faith of those who trusted her, but the attacks that followed were extreme and said more about our society than her immeasurable lack of moral fibre. 

Love Will Not

I find myself on a stony path at the edge of a precipice, starring into a black oblivion. I ask myself, as all we must, how did I end up here?

 Myself turned to me and gravely pointed out the roads we had travelled, “It is the dark side of human nature that has driven us in this direction. Selfishness, deceit, fear, loathing, these are the easiest to transverse, smoothly paved highways beyond the reach of all who suffer the indignity of poverty, disease and oppression.

This is the place that the journey of the blind ends. What can save us now that our destination is upon us, what will stop us from stepping over the edge, into the plummeting end we so richly deserve?”

“Love,” was my answer without hesitation, “love will not let us fall.”

The Falling

I didn't like what I’d see,
But I knew the darkness would be lifted.
A life so precious a gift
Too soon wasted on the rocks of a man-made cliff.

She spoke to my broken bones from the corner of the street,
“I live with the sunrise
And die under a million stars.
I am the tide that crushes the stones
Only to recede into the murky moonlight.” 

Suddenly I loved her.
The overbearing understanding of her nature, 

Appealed to my temporary self.

I reached for one soft touch
Blood dripping from my skin,
A tenderness of a passing kiss.

But the sun was falling in the west,
She faded like she wasn't there
And left me lying in the dark.