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"Life is supposed to be difficult," he said taking a long swig for his ornate hip flask, "It’s the struggle against the infinite violence of a universe.” I smiled, perhaps he was right or perhaps he was just an asshole making it up as he went along, but the gravity of his remark struck me unexpectedly. The default to life was indeed struggle, for all life not just intelligent life; why would I be exempt. I didn’t care for the man and his insidious gloat of pomposity. Nothing is absolute, nothing certain, which makes the possibilities boundless. The joy of life is making it from one moment to the next through adversity and earning the things the things people say about you when you arrive at your freshly dug grave carried by those you hold dearest.

Wednesday, 22 October 2014

The Winter

Coats cling tightly to huddle figures in the wind. Night splits temporarily by the buzzing street lights’ yellow glow.

The bus waits.

Her hands rise to fend off his pleas, heart broken by a thousand deep and everlasting cuts.

He reaches for one last chance only to be brushed aside, her voice beating away his advances; she tilts her head downwards so as not to see him cry.

He serenades her with the memories of their youthful love; a tree that promised warm and tender fruit.

How badly he’d failed to tend her blossoms.

His knees meet the icy concrete; she steps away, long hair dancing like liquid darkness, to leave only gravity and his constant remonstrations weighing on his sanity and turning her name into screams.

But she would get on that bus, the longing would begin and she would look down on his wet and confused face from behind the frosty glass on a journey to the end of the line.

And he will know she is gone for the very last time.

Wednesday, 1 October 2014

The Grey Man

There once lived a man who'd forgotten how to dream. His home was full of neatly arranged boxes in which he packed all his troubles and ticked them off as he plodded soullessly from day to day.

A series a tedious daily, pressing routines tolled on the man’s very sanity and settled on his face in deep lines and crevasses. Food became another task and music faded into the background until only the clanging of alarms signalling a change from one state to the next could be heard.

His heart grew weary of from hopelessness.

On a day like any other, as he sat at his desk stamping relentlessly at his accounts in his now tiny living space, the ground tremored violently with ominous intent.

The house was torn in two as its roots shook forcefully with more, even mightier rumbles. The boxes, stacked high, collapsed all around crushing and pinning him to the ground. The things he worked hardest for now would end his life.

Suddenly the earth split violently pouring steam into the air and threatening to devour the man and all his labours.

With just seconds to live a miracle came over the unfortunate soul. The smoke cleared, the noise subsided and in the moment before he vanished, the sun touched his face, birds serenaded him, and the colours of the brightly lit day became real.

 Smells rose bringing back memories of loved ones, ones loved and the pure joy that was all but a distant past.

Hot baking bread; cinnamon loaves, the warmth of his mother’s kitchen as she sang joyfully to him, the grass of a thousand fields under bare feet, the tree of his first kiss, the popcorn of the broken down cinema that once shimmered with stars, his first car, the first touch of naked flesh, poured out of the recesses he'd hidden them in.           

As the ground gave way the man screamed in horror through tears of pure regret but there would be only one miracle that day.